Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Becoming Me, 1st installment

Opening

I must have had the dream again last night, though I didn’t remember it invading my subconscious when I woke this morning, the dream is what always triggers the restlessness…


I was walking through the newly laid parking lot of the grocery store, with its dark black asphalt and bright orange lines, blinding in the morning sun. I'd been coming back from the bank, where I had just finished getting something notarized. In my boredom, I began contemplating this life of mine and the daydreams Id been having all morning about something different, something wild and exciting, something that would be a change from the housewife like state I’ve existed in for what suddenly seemed like an eternity.


When I spotted the silver Armada with the New York plates parked 2 rows down from me, it was like a doorway to my soul opened up. That’s when I knew I’d had the dream last night. I felt the urge to climb in even though my husband was waiting for me at home. I felt the urge even though I had long ago become the children’s mother in practice and most definably in my own heart. I felt the urge even though I loved the father I’d had since I became Shelly. The pull was irresistible, it always was. I lifted the handle that had grown warm to the point of blistering my hand in the blow dryer hot, desert sun, and I got in. In that instant I became someone else entirely…

3 comments:

NeaCakes said...

is this a booooook? Cuz I'm kind of hookeeeed.

TheGirlYou'llNeverKnow said...

yes, its something Ive been working on in all that "spare" time I have, you know after I do 2.5 hours of school work with Ana, cook dinner and do dishes, bathe and put the kids to bed, do 3 hours of my own homework not to mention the house cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping and girl scout leadering ;).

Its funny, the idea kind of took over my thoughts one day while walking through the grocery store parking lot ;). I have more or it, nothing Im ready to share just yet, soon maybe if its interesting enough I guess. Do you really like it or are yah just being nice? I was unsure if I should even share it?

NeaCakes said...

no I really like it. I'm very curious what happens next. I was thinking about "what a good hook", because I'm curious if she changed her identity before, and wants it back: if she is psychic, with her dreams and all. Or is she longs fo something more so she is randomnly jumping into people's cars? So you hooked me.

I'm like that too, I think about things to write often, in random places, but never do.